Matters of the Heart

Sometimes learning things the hard way is inevitable. Especially when all the wrong elements are at play. 

Cheating, jealousy, lies and half-truths are those elements. With no trust, no concrete foundation of truth, a relationship is bound to fail.

When you can’t trust, everything will fall apart.

However, the naive person believes in everything he wants to believe as long as it fits the truth he wants to believe that gives a sense of happiness in love. 

Devastating events can of course, lead to the disintegration of the relationship.

The question is, can you still make it work?

The chances for that is extremely slim. 

What to do next?

Lick your wounds, chin up and move on. Life could have been worse but you’re alive, you’re here, you have another day to make it better.

On Inspiration

It’s amazing that in life, you get to meet people who have had their fill of living, people who yearn to taste true living and people who try to live each day as something worth writing about.

People get inspired by different things because there are no two people in this world who are the same. I get inspired by other writers, by their lives and their words. Reading about them and learning how they have lived and what they wrote inspires me to re-examine my own life and how I can make it extraordinary.

I welcome to know more people who can inspire me to be the best me that I can be. 

However, I realize that I am also tempted to simply give in to that road I took in the past, to get behind that curtain off indifference and pursuit of self-love and indulgence. Memories fill me with the desire yet I am reminded that I am still the master of my own fate. I can still control that dark side of me.

Letting words overflow and things that come to mind be simply written down to remind me that each day we are tested by life. Knowing that the prize is something beyond I can put into words, steers me to the direction I hope takes me to a better life, a better me.

Finally, it rained…

My date with my cousin MJ was awesome! We went to SM with his brother and we helped him shop for pants and tshirts. After an hour and a half of walking, we had lunch at KFC (I call it kefs). We ate so much!!!

MJ and I proceeded to our aunt’s house in Xavier Heights after lunch. We watched TV with her and chatted gaily. She was living alone there now because her only daughter lives in Bukidnon with her husband.

Our visit ended with me bringing home a maternity dress, vanilla lip balm (tastes so yummy) and toys for Taz, my puppy. MJ got a pink bag and a lemon lip balm.

In the afternoon, we went to Cogon to go ukay-ukay! Yay! MJ got to buy 3 pairs of jeans for only 100 pesos! We went window shopping some more…there are so many things to see and so much stuff I wanted to buy! It sucks not to have money. I miss those days when I had a regular paycheck every 15th and end of the month.

We had snacks at a bakery and then went to Ororama to check out what I can get for my old Nokia 6280. The stalls were all uniform in pricing it only as worth 1,500php should I want to sell it to them. I wanted a trade in and after an hour, I was able to get a black Sony Ericsson K608i. It’s a secondhand phone and I had to add 200 pesos for it. Still, so far, so good. It is in good working condition but it doesn’t have any accessories like earphones and the USB cable. I need to buy those in the future. I gave it to my dad to replace the previous cheapo phone I gave him two years ago.

Soon, we left for dinner. While munching foodie at Maxi’s (a local hangout near our old home) with my parents and cousin, the rain finally made a grand entrance, complete with thunder and heavy downpour that went on for an hour or so. I twas so refreshing to hear! The smell of rain was sorely missed and the wind picked up my happy sighs and sent soothing waves of cool breezy air. I was so delighted. It was a perfect ending to a wonderful day! I am so blessed. We all are.

Earlier, I did my laundry. I’m glad the sun is shiny and all that but I’m hoping that later, after I keep the dried newly washed clothes, the rain will come by again and make the world a cooler place.

I stumbled upon CDO Bloggers. I joined them. 🙂

The perils of boredom

I’m not moving. I’m just in this place of monotony and zero activity. Let me try to disengage myself from this disposition.

I’m psyched that my cousin started his own blog here in Do visit his blog at

I joined Payperpost in hopes that I will earn from it. Wish me oodles of luck on this, please.

The journey to fins the perfect online job is not an easy road to take. I read this ebook on how to nuild traffic for my blog and I was a tad disappointed because it didn’t really teach me anything new that I haven’t done before. Sigh. I also went through my old blog list and most of the bloggers there are no longer blogging. Is the world of blogging dead?

Yet, I am hopeful. It’s the only thing to do for now. Hope.

I tried my hand at the lottery and sadly, I didn’t win anything on my first try. I thought I could win a wad of cash because of beginner’s luck plus I’m 6 months pregnant. All that talk of being lucky…yeah, right. Not!

Here ends my ramblingsfor today. I leave you with two awesome and boredom-free sites: PostSecret and TMWFA.

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happiness is a choice

 Today, I wanted to be happy. I found this blog called Happy Thoughts. It’s very nice. It made me think of things that make me happy. One of them is writing. Another is drawing or painting. Singing also makes me happy.

Here’s my happy thought drawing today…


and here is my happy song, titled “For You and Me”.


I choose to be happy…what about you?

my OB is EVIL!

Ok, i am exaggerating. My doctor is nice. It just irks me so that she won’t allow me to have an ultrasound yet. She asked me to wait until i’m on my 30th week of pregnancy. How’s that? I am dyuing to know if I’m gonna have a baby girl or a baby boy.

My next check-up will be on September 4 and still she won’t allow it. She wants me to wait. I think my sister will give birth first before I’ll even know the sex of my baby.

I gained 3 kgs and this is bad. She told me to cut down on my rice and sweets. My heart is breaking. I have a sweet tooth and it only lost its power during my first trimester. Now, it’s back in full force and I’m eating everything in sight! It is terrible because I get hungry and all I can think of eating are chocolates, sweets and ice cream with lots of cola on the side. Sigh. I have to curb this awful craving.

Next month, my evil Ob is expecting me to give her only a maximum of 2kg weight gain. Good luck to me.

To everyone expecting me to break the news on my baby’s gender, I apologize. We all have to wait until mid-September or so. Ugh.

Walking away

I had to see for myself. A year from the break-up. My cousins were right. Seeing my ex-boyfriend happy with his girlfriend was the start of me moving on. When I saw his face, I suddenly realized that I have never made him that happy when we were together. It’s time to really walk away.