Enigmatic Eight

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en·ig·mat·ic (adjective) – mysterious, puzzling, difficult to understand

example:  At 8 years old, I can describe my daughter as enigmatic.

Yes, at this tender age, Heaven boggles my mind. She is moody, bossy and mean. I don’t know what to do with her. I don’t even know what’s wrong or what is causing this fierce personality to come out of my daughter. And I asked, believe me, I asked. She gave me mundane and silly reasons that I cannot fathom the logic behind my queries.

I find myself wishing I can turn back time when she was a biddable and pleasant child. Ugh!

I do recognize that she want to be independent (and she is) but she hardly has a sense of control. She now goes out of the house and hangs out with her friends within our subdivision but nowhere I have been. I’m scared half the time when she goes out. Accidents, dog bites and other things go through my mind making me anxious to have her back home.

So this summer, I decided to enroll her to a swim class. She liked this. Sadly it was only for 10 days. Although now, she can swim like a mermaid.

After the swim class, I entertained her with painting, dancing and the occasional mall date. Then I enrolled her to piano and voice classes but her lessons only happen twice a week. This means having a mini war with her each time I don’t give in to her demands during the rest of the week.

She is spoiled by all of us at home but I can’t really do much about it. She’s the only kid. Even when we treat her like an adult sometimes, she is still a kid and she gets cranky, hungry and throws tantrums that drives me crazy.

But I love her.

So I pray that this phase passes soon. We do have her recital and an out-of-town invite with her godmother in May to look forward to. Still, I can only hope that she will outgrow this 8 year old phase and become my loving Bumblebee again.

PRAYER OF A SINGLE PARENT   Heavenly Father, Let me express my grateful appreciation for the precious gifts of children you have entrusted in my loving care.   Grant me the grace and strength to raise these wonderful human beings. As a single parent, I only have you as my divine partner in raising them upright and well.   Help and lift me up when the going gets tough and challenging ahead.   Provide me the courage and total trust that you will find the way for resolving whatever situations come our way.   Empower me, Oh Lord, to worship and honor you with the responsibility of a genuine parenthood. Allow the undestanding that we are just assigned guardians of our children who have their own destiny as you will their lives to be.   Whenever fear and anxiety get the better of me, Lord, come to my rescue and let me surrender all my concerns trusting in your infinite powers and love.   Instill in all of us Chirst-like values which will inspire others who become part of our lives to believe and become closer to you. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
*I just want to share this to all single moms and single dads. This came from my cousin Jessa. Thank you, Jet!