Gadgets for a Child

As more and more kids nowadays get to have iPads, iPhones and tablets to play with, I can’t help but envy them. I don’t own anything that expensive for the sake of entertainment. Although, Heaven gets to play on my puny Android phone, it’s nothing compared to them.

For the past few days, I was tempted to get her one of those tablets for the sake of having her get entertained and learn about puzzles, logic, words and counting numbers. Yet, something keeps holding me back. She’s only 3 years old and basically, incapable of learning how to take care of a toy that costs more than my month’s salary.

I realized that my envy was clouding my judgement.

There will always be some kids who are better off than mine with parents earning more than me. Although I do my best to explain to her that there are some things we can’t afford to buy, she doesn’t really understand it well because she’s merely a child.

So the challenge here is to find more ways to entertain her. So instead of buying her a tablet, I bought her a skipping rope. Zeroing in on her locomotor skills, she was delighted and challenged. I also get to exercise with her. I do have to show her the ropes. 🙂

Finally, I turned to myself and did my best to silence my envy monster with a reality check. I have bills to pay and more necessary things to buy than a wickedly expensive toy for my child.

Thank you, Lord for giving me this insight.

The Rage

there are times when I feel that i am no longer capable of feeling rage. Anger, annoyance and irritation becomes irksome compared to rage. 

The other day, i felt it after a long time.

It was liberating at first but then I slowly calmed down to cool my head. It took a lot of self-control but I did it. 

However, I was glad that I experienced that again. The last time I felt that was when I learned my ex-boyfriend cheated on me while we were still together and it was a rage that I thought had no end. Eventually, it did. After forgiving him and moving on with my life, I forgot about it.

Feeling that much anger, pain and betrayal was an eye-opener. It seemed like everything from under the surface of who I was was pushed out and blown up like a volcano of emotions. 

When rage struck again, I was glad to have remembered self-control. To discipline myself from inflicting pain to others was a small feat. 

Today, I realized that bouts of rage pushed my limitations beyond and brought me to new limits that I never though I could have achieved. i guess, this would be the essence why we experience suffering in life. The human spirit thrives and learns to overcome any obstacle when push comes to shove.

Most of all, i believe that God helped me that day when rage returned. I felt a hand touch my heart and someone called out my name to stay calm and not allow rage to take over. 

Sometimes, rage can be a blessing in disguise.

A Man for God or for me?

I attended a recollection and it was great. I met one of the facilitators who was in his seventh year in the seminary. Cute and intelligent. I pretty much liked him instantly. Sadly, he was meant for God. I think. 

Unless, of course, he decides to simply give in to the idea of having a family and a new love instead of serving God. 

I wish. 

The wistful part was that I think he liked me back. 

🙂

Thought bubble

When people say you don’t like a person because he/she irks you or you find them creepy, why do they insist that you like them? Can’t it be that you just find them creepy? or weird? 

I know that most romantic novels begin that the heroine somehow dislikes the hero but then because of underlying tension, they get to connect somehow and hook up.

Sadly, in real life, the heroine just finds the guy irritating. 

Here’s the deal-breaker  should you have several guys you don’t like and have basically catered them to the “friendzone”, does this mean you really really like them or you truly dislike them?

I’m totally dreading an upcoming social event because I’m pretty sure someone will try to do the unthinkable and try to flirt with me and all I would be secretly doing is find ways on how to be polite and not display disgust.

In conclusion, I realized that if and when I do like a guy, I develop a crush on him. That’s basically it. If I don’t like a guy, one way or another, he would know it. 

Story of my non-existent love life. 

Les Miserables

Despite the many scathing reviews I read on the movie musical Les Miserables, that didn’t really deter my excitement for watching the film. The first song that I heard from it was “A Little Fall of Rain” and it made me cry.

The movie, for all its attention to details and acclaimed cast, was quite good. Not as good as the original musical but good enough for me. The characterization was passable. I expected Javert to look and feel mean and fiery but Russel Crowe’s performance was more stoic and bored. Hugh Jackman’s acting was good although there are some parts of the movie wherein more feeling should be shown on his face, especially that they did a lot of close-up shots.

I expected a more intense exchange between the two main characters but was disappointed to see them banter like strangers instead. Colm Wilkinson, who played the original Valjean was cast as the Bishop of Digne and all I can say is that he is truly one of a kind. No one can really do justice to him as Valjean.

Anne Hathaway as Fantine was superb. Her performance was equally matched with her acting and singing. Cosette and Marius were okay but I was disappointed with Eponine’s bland rendition of “On My Own”. I have to echo other critics when they say that the Thernardiers’ performance was toned down. It would have been more comical had they not.

All in all, I urge you to watch it, if not out of curiousity but to relive the power of the songs and unforgettable performances of the original musical play.

The Legend of Korra

I am an Avatar fan. I loved Aang and was addicted to his journey on becoming the Avatar. I heard mixed reviews on the new Avatar, Korra, which is why I put off watching it.

When we went to Manila for Christmas break, I bought the DVD and watched it with Heaven. Now, we kept on watching it over and over again! Heaven likes Korra a  lot.

The cast of the Legend of Korra

However, watching the new Avatar, rekindled my love for the first Avatar. I was totally more interested as to what happened after Aang saved the world and savored the flashback sequences shown on the new Avatar series.

I can’t wait to watch Season 2!!!!! I’m dying to know what happened to Zuko’s mother and how each character eventually fared. On to the bending world!!!

2013 Blog Update

So I’m back. ironic that my first ‘back-to-blogging’ post would be written on the last few days of the year.

Comically, we survived the End of the World that was linked to a Korean pop song and the rise of the zombies. I wasn’t really that worried because no one really knows when the end shall come, right? If you get into an accident and died, basically, that’s the end of the world for you.

Anyhow…

it’s now January 17th, 2013!!! Happy New Year!!!!

Our Christmas break began on dec.22 and after a fun Christmas with family at CDO, we went to Manila to celebrate the new year with my mom.

lots of places to go and people to meet but somehow, it went good despite Heaven catching flu.

Heaven and Cayenne finally met!

Heaven’s new squeeze, Corvin Paylangco.

Heaven with Kuya Koen!

Amazing dinner with Ninang Jen and my family at Greenbelt.

Bonding time with Kuya Liam and Ninang Jen!

It was a great way to start 2013. Reconnecting with loving friends and family. We also visited my sister Anna and my uncle Tito Omey who recently passed.

I’m so thankful to God for all the blessings He showered us. Each day is filled with love and laughter. Even though there are times when I feel alone, He finds a way to tell me that I’m not by reminding me of people around me who cares deeply and those whom I can also be of help.

To a wonderful year ahead, cheers!