A lot of people have asked me why I named you Heaven Anthony. Some comments were crude while others are plain funny. You see, “heaven” is such a broad concept. Basically, it can be used in many ways. It can pertain to a place, a state of mind, an emotion or used as an adjective. “Anthony” is one common name in our family but later on that.
When I found out that I was pregnant with you and I didn’t know that you’ll be a girl, the names I chose were all for boys. Thinking of names for girls, well, I came up short on that. Around 10 years ago, I wrote in my old blog that when I’ll have a baby girl, I’ll name her “Merianthe something (I already forgot the second name) Raphael”. If I’ll have identical twin boys, the names were “Matthew Red Raphael” and “Manuel Vincent Raphael”.
When I found out that I’ll have a girl, each time I pray, the word “Heaven” keeps on popping in my head. It was as if God was telling me to name you “Heaven”. And so I did (much to your G-Ma’s chagrin. She wanted me to name you after her).
The second name “Anthony” was quite easy. I have always loved St. Anthony since every time I lose something, I pray to him to help me find it and voila! Whatever it was I was searching for, just turns up right before me. Besides, Lola Love (your great grandmother) added “Anthony” to my aunts Joanna, Desiree and Daphne’s names too. You are actually now part of the “Anthonys” in our clan (joining Sven, Carlo, Eugene, Gerduane and Koen).
I also thought that with “Anthony” in your name, I will always find you, no matter what.
Here’s a thought. I actually wanted to add “Rogue” in your name but decided to drop it. I am a total X-Men fan and her character appealed to me.
My love, now that you know this, here’s what I want you to learn: Names are names but what makes people remember you is not your name but your character. Instead, strive to be the best person you can be. Always be kind and be humble. Remember, that your true self shouts your rightful name so persevere to be called “a child and servant of God”.
Happy first birthday, Heaven Anthony! Mommy loves you more than you’ll ever know.
Loving you always,